UwaSoTemperate

this is the only journal i might be posting for  very long time.

my dad has restricted the acess to wi-fi and internet in my house.
why?

because i have a bad attitude. because i don't stay straight. because i don't have a good posture. because i can't eat well. because i fail.

he thinks that i never do nice homeowrk because i forget something over the holydays.
he thinks i should have better manners just because i got sauce on my t-shirt accidentally.
he thinks that i don't deserve anything just because i'm lazy.
if i don't do homework, he shouts.
if i don't stay nicely, he punches my back.
if i get my t-shirt dirty, he takes my food away.
if i am lazy, he keeps giving me lectures of how not to be.


he has pushed me into the deep ends of depression and anxiety. he has pushed me deep into being antisocial. he has pushed me deep into losing my faith that people will be nice to me.

nobody cares, they say.
talk to us, they say. but they don't care.
my irl friends don't talk to me because they're either too busy or have problems on their back already.

this started since i was little. it carried on for 7 years.
this message played in my head since i was little.

'go to hell.'
'nobody cares.'
'you're not worthy.'
'die.'
'liar.'
'weirdo'
'bitch.'
'...i hate you.'


why should i care anymore about anything i do? nobody loves me. why should i love myself?


these are my last words before i go on hiatus for a very long time. he won't allow me to come back.

//leaves, tears fall on my cheeks.

Hi everyone,
so I decided to do some art trade offers with you guys.
just comment below with what character u want me to draw and in what pose. Background optional.

RULES -
1. I don't draw anthro / furry, unless only the ears and the tail of that species.
2. I don't draw robots, only mecha inspired characters.
3. I can draw up to two OC's. Gay shippings allowed, but it must be human ONLY. (And pls no kiss scenes I have no darn idea how to draw those OTL)
4. KEEP IN MIND THAT I MAY LEAVE THE PROJECT OF YOUR AT HALFWAY THROUGH WITHOUT FINISHING, BUT CHANCES ARE THAT I WILL DEFINETELY COME BACK TO THEM LATER.
5. All of the pictures that I'll do will be either chibi or anime, your complete choice.
6. I don't draw severe NSFW. Sure, I can draw very light. (Like lingerie and stuff. But no further than that.)
7. I don't draw fetish art.
8. I can only draw light gore. Gore and pastel gore are allowed.

ffffFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUDGE
i put too much stuff, I should stop tbh help

#savechaseHi all.
You already know that, Flippy was in the hospital. Here writes his sister:
"Hey again it's me katie chase's big sister just wanted to let you know he's still okay he's still in the hospital he'll be here for another day or two for his artery to heal a couple painkillers put him right to sleep he cut strait through his left radial artery in his wrist but i'm taking classes to be a nurse so thank god i was able to keep him alive until the meds came i heard a loud thump upstairs and i found him on the floor with a knife in one hand and he was bleeding out the other hand
Now i wanted to talk to you because you are one of the only three people he told us he still trusts we need your help he won't be able to type or text for a week or so but he told us everything and really i think this whole thing is really stupid and those other guys should be ashamed for making our little brother do something like that he is so crushed that he feels like he is alone so we want you to
please help FlippyIsKing18 out. He was and still is one of my bestest friends.
do a gift send a note. Just do anything that'll make him happy.

ill tell you about an idea I have, it may sound weird, but still. flippy said I could do it.

so, if you guys have heard of the game 1 billion wives, you'll know what I'm talking about.
if you haven't, here's some info - 10bwives.wikia.com/wiki/Main_P…
i thought of us girls and boys serving as the role of the 'wife' in a picture. Don't worry - not an actual wife, that's symbolic.
so basically displaying as the characters for him. 

This is may sound weird - but I really want to do it.

so if you could send me a note or something like that with which character you'd like to be....

nobody's gonna want to be in this picture tbh but eh

hey guys!
im doing a raffle to celebrate 60 watchers!
thank you Japaneseblossom19 for being my 60th watcher!

now, rules for entering! (:bademoticon: =required field to enter. this means you gotta do it, sorry.)
 you must be a watcher! new watchers are always welcome, but don't just watch me for the contest. i will check.:bademoticon: 
 say 'i like waffles with cream' in the comments! +1
 tell me if you are an old or new watcher. +1
 tag people. maximum is 4. +1 for each person tagged.
 share this journal with the world! +2:bademoticon: 

alright!
i will pick 3 winners if more than 5 people participate. (:
all of the prizes will be fully shaded.
keep in mind that i dont draw anthro/furries, or too overly detailed characters. 
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE! NOW GO!
edit - WINNERS HAVE BEEN CHOSEN! FlippyIsKing18 , 123JACKjack and meowusaurus are the winners! plase send me a refference, pose and choice of background you want your character to be in.

Tagged by Aquariiaa 


[X] You have screamed at an inanimate object for "hurting you." (DYLAN THE DOOR YOU ARE OFFICIALLY A DICK)

[X] You have run into a glass/screen door. ((↼_↼) what did i just say)


[] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.

[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks. (i do that all the time. nobody talks to me anymore.)

[x]You have run into a tree/bush. (that explains why im so dumb.)

[] You have been called a blonde.


Total so far: 4


[X] You know that it is possible to lick your elbow. (NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLEEEEE)

[X] You just tried to lick your elbow. (OWWWWW MY ARM)

[] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star had the same melody. (i realised that when i was 4 lol)

[] You just sang them to make sure. 

[X] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen. (ohohoho many times)

[X] You have choked on your own spit. (;;;*_*)


Total so far: 8


[] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.  

[X] You type with three fingers or less!

[X] You have accidentally caught something on fire. (i actually tripped and accidentally caught a candle on fire. everyone thought that was the best trick theyve ever seen XD)

[X] You have tried to drink out of a straw, but in went into your nose. (ヽ(´ー｀)┌)

[x] You have caught yourself drooling.(over a clock. yes.)

Total so far: 12


[] You have fallen asleep in class. 

[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking. (yes)

[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about. (m train of thought never knows where its going)

[X] People often shake their heads and walk away from you. (i always say im a globe for some reason)

[X]  You are often told to use your inside voice. (for some reason i shout when i talk dammit)

Total so far: 16


[X] You use your fingers to do simple math. (nine times table. and it can actually be done in fingers believe it or not)

[] You have eaten a bug accidentally.

[X] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important. (yeah.)

[X] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it. (￣ω￣

[X] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. (yeah.)

Total so far: 20


[X] You have posted journals because you are scared of what they say will happen if you don't. (yes i did indeed.)

[x] You break a lot of things. (people's ears and shit.)

[X] You tilt your head when you are confused. (＼(⌒▽⌒))

[X] You have fallen out of your chair before. (all the time. and once in school '._.)
[X] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling. (sometimes lol)

Total so far: 24


[X] The word "um" is used frequently. 

[] You don't know what "um" means.

[X] You say "what" and "huh" a lot. (what u talkin' about)

[x] You plan on using a calculator to multiply your score for this meme.

Total: 27


Now multiply your total by 3 for your score.
And write as your journal title "I am X% Weird."

I TAG:
biscuit-the-bunny 
Winsstar 
UndertaleFTW - my wife
Praxinas